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…we are at the hospital, the syntocin drip is in (gosh, I don’t like cannulas), and Edward’s heartbeat sounds great. I just had my first proper contraction, and now I’m waiting for the second. To be honest, I’m still half in denial that this is all happening today, but I guess it really is! I just wanted to check in and say thanks for all your wonderful words of encouragement and support. It really means a lot to me. (And yes, I am probably the only woman in the labour ward who came in equipped with her Macbook Pro, wireless mouse and mouse pad.) I probably won’t post here again until after Edward’s arrival, but feel free to check Facebook for more immediate updates. See you all on the other side!

…I am sitting here at the computer in our dining room. The boys are asleep upstairs, and Rick is out for the evening. The house is quiet except for the sound of Modern Family playing on the television in the family room.

…I am working away on photo book projects which I’m hoping to wrap up before baby Edward arrives.

…I am deeply excited about a collaboration that I can’t talk about in detail just yet. It’s something that I’ve been dreaming of for some time now, and I can’t wait to see it come to fruition later on this year.

…I am extremely nervous about labour. I can’t get my head around the fact that I’ll be doing it all again in just two and a half weeks time. Despite having gone through it four times already, it’s still surreal to me that this is the way most babies enter the world.

…I keep vacillating between excitement about Edward’s arrival, and anxiety about his safety in these last days. My mind keeps drifting back to Cameron whenever I start worrying that Edward has been too still. I guess this is simply part of my world now.

…I am so thankful for my husband, who is pulling out all stops in terms of looking after me and the boys, especially as my physical mobility continues to diminish the closer we get to my induction date.

…I am so happy about my day with Jamie today. He and I spent over five hours together this morning – just the two of us. We played, we talked, we read, we got into the car, we drove to Dee Why, we ate and drank at our local cafe, we walked to the beach, we ran errands at Officeworks, we came home, and all the while, we smiled and laughed and said “Love you!” constantly to each other.

…I am so proud of Pete, who is coping extremely well with adjusting to preschool. There are some mornings when he will tell us over and over again that he “don’t want to go to school!” but then by the time he gets out of the car at the other end, he usually goes in without a fuss and ends up having really good days. I love that little man so much.

…I am in awe of Angus, for his comprehension of almost all things in life, and his perceptiveness and sensitivity. There is not much that escapes him. Sometimes I forget he’s only four and a half. I am also grateful to him for looking after Pete so well at preschool on Wednesdays. He has definitely become not just “a big boy,” but also “a big brother.”

…I feel so blessed to have my family.

…I am so blessed to have my family.