As of this moment…

…Edward has just had his last feed and Rick is putting him down. The older boys are all in bed, though possibly not all yet asleep. Rick’s parents are in our family room, watching television. They are staying over tonight because tomorrow morning Rick and I have to take Jamie off to the hospital for a laryngoscopy to try and determine the cause of his husky voice. This means that he will be undergoing general anaesthetic for the first time. It is almost impossible to express how anxious I feel right now – how terrified I’ve been all week in fact. I’ve been playing and re-playing worst case scenarios in my head, and in all honestly, it’s been ‘doing my head in.’ I’ve had more than a few bouts of tears as I picture life without my little boy, and it’s simply been awful; I should never have read that novel, Oxygen, in which a young child dies in the operating theatre because of anaesthesia. Rationally, I know it’s a common routine procedure, but the mother in me cannot help but imagine the worst and be scared. I can’t even bear the thought of my little guy struggling against the gas. I just want it to be over and done with. Tomorrow, we will leave early in the morning at 6am and Jamie is first on the list at 8am. At least we won’t have to wait around for a long time. I just want him to be okay. That’s all I ask. If you are someone who prays, please pray for us…

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Anne May 12, 2013 at 11:36 am

thinking of you x

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Pink Ronnie May 13, 2013 at 11:01 am

Thank you Anne, and appreciate you taking the time to leave a message. Thanks for reading here.
Ronnie xo

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Kirsty @ My Home Truths May 12, 2013 at 11:36 am

I hope all goes well tomorrow. I remember feeling the same worries when my daughter had an anaesthetic to have grommets inserted in her ears. All went well (thankfully) but I completely understand where you are coming from. All the best, I hope they can give you some answers too.

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Lisa May 12, 2013 at 11:37 am

prayers coming your way, sweet Ronnie. What a difficult thing for any child or parent to experience. Praying all will be well xo

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Bec Zacher May 12, 2013 at 11:48 am

Hi Ronnie, thinking of you. It’s terrible the things that stay with us from novels and tv shows. My little girl had to get put under from a nasty fall so they could do a full examination and scans. It was horrible seeing her like that but we had such great care from the doctors and nurses and i am sure you will as well. Will be praying that you will wake up feeling total peace and everything goes very smoothly x Phillipians 4:6

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Pink Ronnie May 14, 2013 at 3:26 am

How awful to have to go through that! Thanks for sharing, it really helped.
Ronnie xo

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jodi May 12, 2013 at 11:52 am

Oh Ronnie, don’t feel guilty for your worry – it’s a mama’s job to do so! I’ll pray for you and sweet Jamie. Before you fall asleep tonight I’d love it if you mentally repeating ‘let’ as you inhale and ‘go’ as you exhale. Let go of worry and tension so you sleep well x

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libbywilko May 12, 2013 at 11:56 am

You all will be in thoughts and prayers, hope it goes successfully.

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Beth May 12, 2013 at 12:10 pm

Praying for you all. For Jamie, that the drs are wise and care for him the best they can and for you and Rick, that God will calm your hearts and you will feel his comfort. X

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erica @ expatria, baby May 12, 2013 at 12:16 pm

I’m holding you in my heart. Peace, lovely.

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Carin May 12, 2013 at 12:47 pm

Love, hugs and prayers across the oceans. xoxo

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Modern Day Mummying May 12, 2013 at 1:17 pm

Thoughts and prayers are with you and your little boy for tomorrow Ronnie. As parents we can’t help but worry for our babies in all situations out of our control. Love to you all…

Sophie xo

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Amanda May 12, 2013 at 1:21 pm

You and your sweet boy will definitely in my prayers my friend. Be strong. Big hugs to you all xx

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alexandra devellis May 12, 2013 at 1:59 pm

Ronnie… I had all those same thoughts a few months back when little H had to have oral surgery. It was such a challenge to keep my mind from worrying. It was also difficult because Paul couldn’t be there to help so my Mom and I handled it all together. Thankfully it went well.
I am praying for you and your Jamie and can’t wait to hear good news.
hugs and love.
xo

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Pink Ronnie May 14, 2013 at 3:25 am

Thanks Alexandra, this was very encouraging to read.
Ronnie xo

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rooth May 12, 2013 at 2:28 pm

Thinking of little Jamie at this time – hope he is all better soon!

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Elisa {With Grace & Eve} May 12, 2013 at 3:26 pm

Prayers your way xx I know just how you feel – my big girl went under anesthetic at 18 months and I was an absolute emotional mess. We had the most wonderful hospital care though and I’m sure you will too. Our children really are more resilient than we think. My love and thoughts are with you Ronnie xx

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Pink Ronnie May 14, 2013 at 3:25 am

This was so helpful to read, Elisa. Thank you again.
Ronnie xo

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karen May 12, 2013 at 5:11 pm

I will be praying for your sweet boy and for you :) Worrying is such a drain on the brain (at least for me and I’m an old hand at it). good luck!

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Melody May 12, 2013 at 6:15 pm

Praying for your precious heart, knowing that He cares for you so deeply. I’ll keep praying until we hear from you again.

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Donna R. May 12, 2013 at 6:19 pm

Thoughts and prayers are with you. Please keep us updated …

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Melanie Routhier May 12, 2013 at 7:40 pm

Sending prayers to you and Jamie.

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Latrina May 12, 2013 at 10:15 pm

Aww, Sweetie. Everything will be fine! My little niece just recently went in for the same thing… everything will go smoothly. :) Sending you lots of love + air hugs! <3

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Pink Ronnie May 14, 2013 at 3:25 am

I loved reading this just before going in for Jamie’s procedure. Thanks Trina.
Ronnie xo

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Alli May 13, 2013 at 12:26 am

Wishing you all the best xx

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Grace May 13, 2013 at 12:29 am

Hi Ronnie, it’s been ages since I’ve dropped by and I’m sorry about that. Sending you lots of love and will be praying for you and Jamie xxx

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Sheila May 13, 2013 at 2:20 am

Hugs!!! I remember how scary it was the first time my little guy went under but all went well. Hoping they don’t find anything serious. Sending happy thoughts.

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Ritz May 13, 2013 at 2:39 am

Lots of prayers for you all…big hugs to you , can imagine your anxiousness!
It will be ok , believe in god .

Lots of lov xx

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krystal/village May 13, 2013 at 8:47 am

thoughts going out for you guys, i hope all is ok!

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Jane Y. May 13, 2013 at 11:26 am

praying for you! sending warm comforting thoughts!

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