Oh this little guy. He lights up my world every single day.
I still remember how shocked I was when we first found out we were pregnant again just five months after Pete was born. If I recall correctly, I think I went into panic mode for at least two or three weeks. There may even have been tears every other night.
But now look at him.
He is cheeky. He is feisty. He is independent. He is affectionate. He is cuddly. He is gorgeous. He is so cute. And he is funny as.
I couldn’t possibly imagine life without this boy.
He has been my baby for the last two years, but soon, in less than six weeks’ time, he will no longer be my littlest. Instead, he’s going to have a baby brother.
I still can’t wrap my head around this.
With Angus and Pete at preschool together on Wednesdays now, Jamie and I are finally enjoying our first taste of extended one-on-one time together. So far, it’s been wonderful, and part of me wishes that we could have more of these days together. But with less than six weeks to go until Edward arrives, I guess I just have to do my best to make the most of this time.
Tomorrow, we are setting up the new bunk bed in Angus and Pete’s room and in another couple of weeks, we will be moving Jamie in with the big boys. (I know that I was having second thoughts late last night, but I’m 95% certain we’ll be sticking to our original plan.)
Which means the end of an era.
For two years, Jamie and I have been doing bedtime together. Just the two of us. We chat. We read Goodnight Moon. We pray. I pull up his blankets. We sing. We hold hands through his cot. We chat some more. We blow kisses. And then we say ‘goodnight.’
Some nights when I’m tired, I try to rush through the songs, but he always calls me on it. Some nights he’ll make a fuss and cry and draw out bedtime, which then sends me a little over the edge.
But as the bedroom swap draws closer, there’s no denying the truth: I am going to miss our bedtime ritual so, so much.
That’s the thing with life. You can’t stop it moving forward.
But this I can do: I can hold my littlest’s hand a little tighter tomorrow night.
And if he asks me to sing “one more song,” I will.
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You have tugged at my heart strings, Ronnie.
I don’t have littles of my own, but I imagine this is an emotional time – watching your boys grow bigger & more independent everyday & wanting to hold onto their ‘babyness’, yet knowing that in just weeks you will have a new addition & many more special moments to create with him.
I love this quote by Jamie Hall – “life is but a fleeting moment so do not waste a second on something that doesn’t make you smile.” I’m sure you will discover these moments in the coming weeks, & rest assured I will be thinking of you.
Sar xx
It goes so, so fast. My “baby” is almost 6 now, and I am so glad I was able to slow down with her so much of the time when she was a baby. He sure is a cutie!
Beautiful quote Sarah, thx for sharing it!
Ronnie xo
such lovely words, ronnie :)
they make my heart melt with anticipation to welcome my first little one into the world at the end of the month!
this one got me. watching children grow up is so beautiful and so heart wrenching. sometimes i get frustrated when my six year old son tries to sneak into my bed in the middle of the night, but then i remember he won’t be doing it for much longer, and boy will i miss waking up with my little guy next to me.
So sweet, just really! This made go aww and brightened my day! So cute!
Big changes, I think you’re right- you can’t stop it- you’ve just got to go with it & enjoy the ride. Mi biggest baby started uni this week, now where did that time go!
Beautiful post, Ronnie! It brought back so many memories. We put our four boys in two sets of bunk beds in one big room. (The bunks had a double bed on the bottom and a twin on top.) Prior to that I sat on the floor in the hall between their various bedrooms and read to all of them at once each night. After they were in the same room, I switched to full-length books on tape. Lots of memories were made in that room. They nearly killed each other on several occasions that I didn’t know about until years later, but I do remember the nights when laughter would pour from their room, sometimes at the oddest hours. It warmed my heart. :)
We’re hoping to do the same thing one day in terms of having the four boys in two bunks in the same room. Can’t wait!!
Ronnie xo
he is such a cutie. good luck with all the transitioning x
This is beautiful, :)
I feel this too Ronnie xx
There it went….a tear. You write so beautifully! Loved this post.
So sweet! Love your love for your boys!
This makes me teary-eyed… I’m having similar emotions right now even thinking that Sofia won’t be my “baby” much longer. How on earth will I learn to equally split my time between the two of them? Will I be able to love another child as much as I love her? The list never ends…
It’s so comforting to read your words here and know that I’m not alone. You will transition beautifully with your mindset, I just know it x
Oh Kate, you are definitely not alone. Let me also reassure you that you will DEFINITELY love your new baby as much as you love Sofia. A parent’s heart is an amazing thing – somehow, it is infinitely expandable. It is absolutely amazing…
Thinking of you lots Kate,
Ronnie xo
Oh, how I sympathize with you! We just moved our two year old to his own ‘big boy bed’ in his brothers’ room last week. Nights of his solo story time/bed time routine are over. I really felt myself missing those cuddly moments with him. Of course, now, we have created a new bedtime routine which allows me to enjoy some new cuddle time with my littlest one (my baby girl). It’s definitely a transition but we’ve both been adjusting. Thank you for sharing your true, raw feelings. Many of us out here can sympathize.
This is such a sweet post, Ronnie. And I can’t believe already 6 weeks until Edward arrives? I still remember when you first announced your pregnancy. Hope you have many more wonderful nights with Jamie and congrats to him joining the big boys. :)
Al your boys are so cute and smart!! :D I am excited for the arrival of your newest little boy ;)
This post is beautiful Ronnie. Sometimes the ‘lasts’ can be just as special as the ‘firsts’ xx
So sweet, I remember staring at Otto for ages on his last night in the cot, rubbing my rounded belly thinking of the new one to go in there. It all happens too fast. A beautiful post.
Aww, so so sweet, Ronnie. <3
I really love what Amanda ^ said. So true, isn't it?
Your little one is growing up! ..your bed night ritual may change but think about all the new things that have yet to come! :) He's going to be such a sweet big brother!
Aww, that is too sweet. I’ll tell you what though, I had a bunkbed growing up and some of my fondest memories are of me and my sister playing in it and telling stories at night. The boys will get to have that and grow closer because of it
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