Embracing… the reality of life

This week has been hard.

Sleepless nights. Body pains. Exhaustion. Rain. Grey skies. Never-ending bills. Stress. Diabetes. Anxiety. Exhaustion again.

Yesterday I finally crumpled into tears.

Sitting on our staircase, I let it all pour out of me. Rick held me and listened to me as I emptied myself of everything that was weighing me down.

It was wonderful to just cry. There’s no denying the sweet release of hot, gushing tears.

Today, I feel lighter. So much lighter.

Yes, I’m still weary. Still stressed. Still have diabetes. Still nervous about the major life change ahead. Still depressed by the unrelenting overcast. Still exhausted by the demands of every day life.

But having cried about it and talked it through with Rick, it feels that much easier to embrace reality.

To embrace life as it is.

(Photo taken outside the Bather’s Pavilion at Balmoral Beach, exactly one year ago.)

‘Embrace’ is my one little word for this year. What’s yours?

29 comments

Manda March 1, 2013 at 10:24 am

What’s the saying? “Salt water cures everything. Sweat, tears, or the sea.” From one mama to another, wishing you peace. (ps…my 9yr old has T1 diabetes..I feel your pain)

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eek! March 1, 2013 at 10:30 am

Sorry to hear you have been stressed but glad you have someone to share that stress with. Hope the weekend starts out better!
oxox

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Kirsty March 1, 2013 at 10:46 am

Oh a cry is a wonderful release. Enjoy your lighter self today. I think embrace is a wonderful word for the year.

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Grace March 1, 2013 at 10:51 am

Dear Ronnie, first of all, I’m so sorry it’s been ages since I’ve last visited your blog. Be assured though, that I think of you often.
It’s good to have a cry. It’s important. As mums and wives, we tend to underestimate or forget how much stress and emotion we’re actually carrying.
Take care of you, dear friend xxx

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housewifeinheels March 1, 2013 at 10:55 am

Nothing like a good cry every now and again. x

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Tamba March 1, 2013 at 11:49 am

Gosh yes, a good cry is so necessary – I had a big crying day the other day and then a really angry day yesterday. Today was so much calmer; you just needed to empty that bottle of emotion. You’re dealing with a lot, a new life, grief, small children, the physicality of being pregnant. This ain’t easy.

My word is ‘accept’. I’m trying to accept the chaos rather than resist it, and take note of how I’m letting it affect me. It’s not about being able to shut it out, rather roll with it and smile in the face of it and yes, cry about it.

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Sally March 1, 2013 at 1:20 pm

Sorry to hear your week has been a tough one, but there’s nothing quite like a big long cry! it helped me a few weeks back when things were piling up and stressing me out way too much. Hope you have a nice weekend ahead!x
p.s absolutely love this pic!

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Jane Y. March 1, 2013 at 1:36 pm

So sorry to hear about your rough week. But so glad to hear you let it out. Crying is good, it’s soothing. Hope you have a calm weekend ahead~

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Bron March 1, 2013 at 2:01 pm

Sometimes reality is a stinker…hope you are in for a relaxing peace filled weekend. xx

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Chloe Moon March 1, 2013 at 2:42 pm

Sometimes all you can do is cry! You’ll get there and everything will be okay! Wishing you strength in this time! =)

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Karen March 1, 2013 at 3:10 pm

I think sometimes holding it all in just gets all too much, a good cry does wonders for you!! Raw emotions and being real, so important. Glad you’re feeling a little better. x Karen

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Sarah March 1, 2013 at 3:57 pm

I don’t know how I would handle life sometimes if I didn’t allow myself a really good cry…the sobbing stinging kind that leaves you breathless when there’s no more tears. It’s a wonderful release of all the weight and worries that we carry and bottle up. I’m sorry you got to that point but so happy that you had a shoulder to cry on. I’ve started to realize and understand that what Iused to think were burdens are really blessings. I hope today is a calmer one for you. xo

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eskimo*rose March 1, 2013 at 5:32 pm

Hello lovely – I hope everything is felling less gery now – I had one of those days today whilst out with my friends, thank goodness they were with me to cheer me up – my friends near and far are so important, they’re right up there with family :o)
I’ve been too busy to keep up with blogging recently, it’s been the school hols, I have been reading your posts thou, I have to go back to your post on organisation and study it – I need to absorb it, I’m hoping osmosis will work!!
xx

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Kate March 1, 2013 at 5:32 pm

Nothing wrong with tears! Glad you have such a fantastic group of men by your side, and I hope things start looking up for you. Big hugs xx

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Antonia March 1, 2013 at 8:52 pm

Oh I;m not surprised you’re feeling a little stressed!! You are amazing and I think I’d be in tears everyday! Let them flow and wash away your worries xxx

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Lisa March 1, 2013 at 10:06 pm

I do love a good cry. I felt the sweet relief of breaking down and sharing my troubles with my husband earlier in the week, it is a wonderful thing to know we don’t have to do this thing could life alone.
Hoping you feel better soon.
xo

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Latrina March 1, 2013 at 11:57 pm

Oh, Ronnie… I can not imagine the struggle you must have been feeling… so wonderful of you to have a supportive husband. A good cry is always the best…and needed! I am sending you plenty of good thoughts! May this weekend treat you well. <3
Trina

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Lynley Johnson March 2, 2013 at 1:51 am

I found your blog a few weeks ago and it has fast become a favorite! I just adore your project life spreads, beautiful photography, and lovely thoughts on life. My word for the year is also “embrace,” and I am also having a little boy this Spring. I have to go in for secondary gestational diabetes testing early next week… Your blog has been very relatable to me! Anyhow, I have just loved your blog and wanted to let you know that your words and images are simply lovely and inspiring. Sending sunny thoughts your way:)
Lynley J

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Pink Ronnie March 2, 2013 at 11:53 am

Hi Lynley,
I just wanted to say thanks so much for reading along, and also for taking the time to leave such a lovely comment. I hope your diabetes testing goes well. Yay for little boys! They are awesome.
Ronnie xo

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Elizabeth March 2, 2013 at 2:40 am

Hugs to you beautiful girl. Hang in there as this too shall pass and remember you are just beautiful. xxx

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Melissa@Julia's Bookbag March 2, 2013 at 5:25 am

Hang in there Ronnie! I’m thinking about you and thinking good thoughts for you. Its been nothing but rain and grey skies here in Seattle as well, and I can barely get out bed in the morning. I’m glad you were able to let it all out. xoxoxoxo

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Sonya March 2, 2013 at 7:18 am

sorry to hear you’ve had a difficult week ronnie. hope the weekend has been kind to you. one of my favourite words for approaching things I’m not totally sure about is joy. I try to going into those situations looking for joy or at the very least trying to find some joy in what I’m doing. most of the times, if I take a moment to think about it, I’ll be surprised by something wonderful, even if it’s fleeting.

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Jess March 2, 2013 at 7:48 am

I love a big horrible snotty cry! It’s one of the best things for the soul.

Hurrah for Rick being there for you too. Sometimes you just need to feel crappy but know that the sun will start shining soon. Good on you for embracing it xoxo

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simplypearl March 2, 2013 at 1:43 pm

hi ronnie, catching up on your blog since my boys have been sick. sorry to hear about the gestational diabetes. ugh. and a good cry… nothing like it. you’re blessed to have a husband who can comfort you.

thank you for sharing about your project management too!

april 15… around the corner. looking forward to seeing pictures of your new man.

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Debie Grace March 3, 2013 at 3:20 am

I wanna hug you, Ronnie! <3 I know life is harsh sometimes but it's good that Rick is there to listen to your problems. You are loved and no matter how bad the world is to you, it doesn't win over the love that's covering your whole being. Take care.

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Alanah Jade March 4, 2013 at 1:02 am

A good cry does absolute wonders! I am glad you are feeling better, this life we all lead is amazing but sometimes it can get so big.

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Emily @ the Beetle Shack March 6, 2013 at 9:16 am

Oh Ronnie, My Sister.

I’m so so so with you. on all fronts. the hard life part ad the connection with husband part.

I find when im pregnant i just go internal- the other night dave and I argued and talked and reconnected. bloody hell it was THE BEST.

thank God for husbands and faith and support.

MASSIVE love to you and that bump.

xx

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