Grey.
I am feeling grey.
Parenting wearies me.
Lack of sleep drains me.
Leaving our home saddens me.
Changing churches grieves me.
Moving unsettles me.
The future evades me.
All I can grasp right now is this hour, and the next hour, and perhaps the hour after that.
I am too exhausted to fathom even tomorrow.
I know in my head that I am richly blessed, but my heart is weary. So very weary.
It has been such a long and hard year; so many stumbling blocks have thwarted our path –
I know it is all finally catching up with me now.
Perhaps tomorrow when I rise, I will glimpse colour once more; but for now, all is grey.
All is grey.
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Thinking of you. Stumbling blocks are hard and frustrating to deal with but they will pass. Hope your coming days are full of rainbows
xxx
I hope things start to look up for you soon.
*Erin
Praying the weight of grey is lifted soon. May tomorrow be a colourful day, and the day after and the day after….
Hang in there Ronnie. You are greatly loved. You are being prayed for. A xx
I am echoing your feelings (almost) exactly. I think it’s partly to do with the weather, partly not.
And there have been times lately where I can’t think about tomorrow (or next week, month etc) but God reminds me to just think about today and leave tomorrow to Him.
I was reminded today that we are to have joy – not happy clappy ‘joy’ – but the joy that comes when ‘not everything is right, but Jesus Christ is Lord’ – which is now, and always. I’m trying to remember that and find deep satisfaction, peace and joy from it.
right there with you Ronnie. been feeling the same. sending hugs your way~
Sorry life has been hard lately. I especially empathize with changing churches. SO. HARD.
Hoping you and your family start to feel settled and part of community there soon!
Hi Cuz, sorry to hear it is not going so well for ya. Before the grey there was colour. After grey colour fill follow :)
I hear you lack strength to go through a day. I guess it is your surrounding asking a lot from you, and maybe that is what you think. Take a step back to realize that you are also strengthened by around you, you just have to accept. I’ll pray for you, that you will be guided to comfort and being content :)
sending you warm hugs.
Sending tons of color your way!
The only constant in life is change.
You’ll get through this. Promise.
ohhhh… It’s horrible feeling grey… hope there is a silver lining and you feel better soon!
Your first photo… I love going over that bit after the bridge… I always feel like I’m flying through the all buildings… it’s even better driving at night… love it :)
Your last photo… I always wonder who lives in those funny little cube like apartments… they must have the best view on NYE! Lucky ducks!
Lx
ronnie ~ taking it one day at a time {maybe even one hour at a time} is always a good idea… but within reasoning of course because loose planning is also a good idea ;) ;)
xo ~ kristina
Hope you are feeling a bit more “bright” soon. You always write the most sweetest kindest posts on other peoples blogs, you bring a lot of brightness to other people’s days so hoping it is coming back your way xxx